August Meeeting

If you created a bedroom for your baby tell us what it was like.
Did you have it ready for them before they were born?
If so how did you cope coming home to it without your baby?
Did you pack it all away?
What is your baby's room now?
If you lost your baby after they had come home what is it like going into there room now?
If you are trying to conceive again, or are pregnant again how do you feel about setting up another room before your baby is born?

When we had our first child, she stayed in our room with us until she turned two. We were going to do the same for baby Joshua. His part of the room would have consisted of an espresso-finished crib (which I loved) and changing table/dresser with a sports-themed decor. All of these things were not set up because I had lost Joshua at 34 weeks gestation (I thought I had more time before his arrival). In fact, these things were actively being sent to us in the mail, and had been been delivered to our front door a couple of days after returning empty handed and broken hearted from the hospital. They remained in their original packaging, and had been sent directly back from where we ordered them. It was just too painful to keep them around as they have become useless to us then.

Coming to our home in general without the baby was horrible. I looked around at the silent cleanliness... and hated it. I thought to myself how it wasn't suppose to be like this. Our house was suppose to be a mess filled with several people wanting to see our newborn. A place that would build lifelong BEAUTIFUL memories. Instead, I was forced to seek comfort from my silent, newborn-lost home

At the moment, I am not trying to conceive, nor am I pregnant. But I imagine doing the same things with a secretive mental fear that I may have to end up returning more unused baby items. =[