Am I Pregnant?

A more direct question: WHAT DOES SPOTTING LOOK LIKE?

I've never had it before. Last menstrual cycle, I think I may have had it? And this cycle, I'm about a week and half late.

Since Joshua's stillbirth, however, I have been getting irregular periods on occassion. Perhaps, stress?

I've been getting periods of light headedness and fatigue even before Thanksgiving. But I thought it was due to the anxiety that comes along with the holidays.

I don't know how to feel at this point. I really don't know. Happiness, fear, excitment, potential dissapointment. Am I even prepared for this?

God, my fate has always been in your hands. I will accept whatever plan you have for me.


Some of you ladies must have had spotting at least once. Please enlighten me! The research I found on Google simply will not do. I need it described to me from someone who's had it first hand.